Growing up

I never expected that doing a master abroad could have such a strong impact on my life, yet here I am, and everything changed….

For the first time in a long, long time, I just want to live. I want to be spontaneous and go for a walk around town on a whim. I want to go to a restaurant alone if that makes me happy. I want to grab my camera and find a nice spot to take pictures. I just want to do something. Anything. 

I want to challenge myself. I want to be brave and get out of my comfort zone. I want to learn new things. I want to meet new people and be the person I always wished I could be. And for the first time in forever, I actually feel like I can do it. I feel strong enough to stop waiting for things to happen miraculously. I feel like all those walls I created around myself as a shield against the world are not necessary anymore. I am growing up and moving on.

I’m spreading my wings, and even though it’s exciting, this desire to live is so strong, sometimes it’s overwhelming.

It is a hard, exhausting lesson to learn. I’ll be honest, I’m not quite there yet. But there is one thing I am sure of: I won’t be satisfied to just go back to France and be the same girl I used to be.

I changed. I don’t know exactly how it happened, it just did. It will take a long time for me to overcome all of the barriers I put for myself. It won’t happen in a few days or even a few months. But it’s necessary to start somewhere. Isn’t it?

2 thoughts on “Growing up

  1. Apparently a Masters really would. But it seems like a lot of people aren’t blogging as much because it’s exam season. It’ll be worth it in the end though. What are you doing a masters in by the way?

    • Hey! Thank you for your comment :) It’s true that it’s hard to keep a blog updated and doing a master at the same time… Thanks god I don’t have exams, but all the essays and stuff are really keeping me busy!!! I do a master in International Relations :)

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